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[fucking_gentleman]

The alarm was sounded at eleven in the morning, the day after Eggsy visited.

The alarms should have gone off before then, but Harry had hacked the machines, pulling and stripping wires and looping the feedback back into itself so there was no sign that he was no longer connected.

He had borrowed clothes by picking his way through the hospital, acquiring one item after another, cards and pass codes and by the time he left, he was dressed and had loose cash, a pilfered phone from a wanker who refused to turn it off and said wanker's credit card, which he used to withdraw the maximum he could and then tossed.

With more CCTV than any other city in the world, he then vanished off the grid.

By the time Eggsy was brought in by Merlin at quarter past midday, Merlin was waiting for another ping from a new internet cafe, the various footage of Harry's escape running behind him, being analysed by technicians for any hints.

"He realised he'd been made and vanished from the last internet cafe in under two minutes. He was off the cameras again within five. You're being authorised to locate and bring in Galahad, before he becomes a target or, worse, gives himself a stroke."

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[prettyballsy]

"Even you make mistakes, Harry. It happens, and yeah people can die. How many years are you going to torture yourself for this with me sitting right here?" He asked, arcing a brow at him, meaning it.

"You don't got to thank me, Harry. I mean it. I'm not telling you that for you either. Not just for you. I'm sayin' it for me too."

He hadn't blamed Harry. Not like his mum had. Yet he had spent his entire life blaming a man he didn't know for being there that day, to the point of "using" him the day he'd gotten picked up. He couldn't know it would turn out like this.

[fucking_gentleman]

He didn't know if he'd beaten himself up for seventeen years over it. Had he? Or had he grieved, moved on and it was only so raw because he felt like he was remembering for the first time?

"James was always that little bit... reckless. Before that. After it. Why didn't he just wear his bloody glasses like he was meant to?"

[prettyballsy]

"Because they probably made him look like a geek," he said, smirking, trying to make Harry realize it was okay. "Maybe because... you know a lot say when it's your time, it doesn't matter what you do. Kentucky wasn't your time. That day was my dad's."

He barely remembered his dad, though he worshiped him in his own mind but it was easy to talk about him like this because he hadn't known him.

[fucking_gentleman]

Harry nodded slightly. He didn't believe in God or fate, not really. Just decisions and consequences. He rested his hand on his eye and temple, sighing slightly. "Poor Alistair. Losing James so violently... we all know it could happen, but it rarely does."

[prettyballsy]

He nodded, shifting in to stroke his fingers along Harry's jaw on the other side. Just lightly touching him, just trying to reassure as best he could. "Are you going to worry about that here?" He asked it softly, knowing Harry couldn't answer yet because he didn't fully know but suddenly it made sense why before he had hidden how he apparently felt.

[fucking_gentleman]

"I... don't know. Things are very muddled in my mind. I know some things, but can't explain how. Others I think I should know, but don't. I can't remember Merlin's name, but I know I should. I can't picture my mother or father, but I can remember the portrait that hung over the fireplace in the country estate. I don't know where that estate is."

He pressed Eggsy's hand to his jaw.

[prettyballsy]

"Then don't worry about it," he said, meaning it, not looking away, meeting Harry's gaze. "One day at a time, Harry. One memory. That's all we can do. We. Okay? I'm not leavin' you to this again, and Merlin even admitted he was wrong," he said, hoping that might calm him as well. "Now, try and focus on here and now. No sense upsettin yourself again."

There was almost a pleading quality to his tones then, worried for Harry.

[fucking_gentleman]

Harry didn't like taking it one day at a time. He wanted it all now. Better now, remembering now, training now.

"I'm rather worried if I focus on here and now, you, us, that I'm going to try seducing again and I have given you my word on that."

[prettyballsy]

Eggsy wouldn't like it either. He wouldn't be happy waiting, and he'd be fucking frustrated, and angry and he couldn't blame Harry for not being happy. Not at all.

Chuckling softly, he stroked his fingers along Harry's cheek. "And you know I want that," he said in a low voice, not hiding it when everyone paying attention - please don't be paying attention Merlin - knew. "And... maybe I get you want to be with me and did before but you didn't want me to know, and I need to make sure you don't regret that," he said in a low voice.

Then, leaning in, lightly brushing his lips against Harry's mouth.

[fucking_gentleman]

Patience had never been Harry's strongest point. He could wait, of course. But he didn't want to, he wanted it to be a choice, not a necessity.

And then Eggsy was whispering to him, stroking and breathing against his mouth just before kissing him and Eggsy had impulse control, had the ability to rationalise.

Harry felt, wanted, went for it because he couldn't remember why he shouldn't. Eggsy kissed him and Harry surged forward into it, taking control of the kiss. His hand caught Eggsy's jaw, as he knelt over him, tilting his head up and bearing down into him.

[prettyballsy]

Some part of him knew it was a mistake, even as he did it. It was a tease, cruel, pushing when he'd just been worried about that. And yet he wanted so badly to be close to Harry, to show him that Eggsy did want him, fucking desperately wanted this.

Even if he didn't want to think about what Merlin said, about Harry never being in relationships, and having to consider if what Harry wanted was just the physical side of things between them and nothing more. He couldn't let himself think about that.

Especially not when Harry was kissing him like that and it left every part of Eggsy feeling alive, electric, beyond all he'd let himself feel since even before he'd lost Harry.

Not even biting back a groan as his lips parted, his hand sliding back, catching the back of Harry's neck as if he was afraid he was going to move away.

[fucking_gentleman]

Harry tilted Eggsy's face up that bit more with a thumb under his jaw, leaning back so their lips were barely brushing one another. He wanted Eggsy to chase the kiss, to push up into it.

He wanted to make Eggsy chase and beg and then take him apart until he didn't remember his own name.

A short, sharp alarm sounded.

"Galahad! What part of 'nothing strenuous' was unclear?!"

[prettyballsy]

How could he not? After dreaming about this so long, Eggsy wasn't willing to just give up. Shifting, leaning into Harry, his tongue sweeping over the other man's bottom lip.

And then that blasted voice.

"Oh come on," he roared, shifting back and away from Harry, looking up toward where the camera was. "It's a bloody kiss," he sighed, slumping. Because dammit, he knew that Merlin was right, but fucking hell.

[fucking_gentleman]

Harry clunked his brow onto Eggsy's, the bandaging softening it. "Fucking Merlin," he grumbled. "Cockblocking son of a bitch."

There was nothing for it, though. Here was monitored and he wasn't inclined to give Merlin a private show. "When I get out of medical..."

[prettyballsy]

His fingers softly kneaded the back of Harry's neck, stroking there at the base of his hair line.

"M'Sorry," he murmured softly, not wanting to move away. "Now you're gonna think I'm a damn tease," he admitted, starting to feel that way himself.

[fucking_gentleman]

"No, not a tease." He laid a hand on Eggsy's chest, pushing him to lay back on the bed where he could watch him, at least enjoy the sight. "Eager."

[prettyballsy]

Eggsy let himself fall, half sprawling along the bed, smiling up at him. "Can't help myself. I've wanted to do that since you came and saved me," he admitted.

[fucking_gentleman]

"Saved you?" He saved him from something? He had a hard time imagining Eggsy needing saving from anything.

[prettyballsy]

"I got picked up for a small infraction of the law," he said. "And I had the medal and that phrase you told me when I was a boy. Oxfords not Brogues. So suddenly they just let me go, and I walk out, and there you were," he said, still staring up at him.

[fucking_gentleman]

"I don't think stealing a car and leading police on a chase through London while driving backwards is actually a minor infraction," Harry said fondly.

[prettyballsy]

"Oh. Nooooow you chose to remember what I did," he taunted, smirking at him. "And it's minor enough. I'm a very good driver," he pointed out.

[fucking_gentleman]

"Are you?" Things came and went. He knew what Eggsy did but the actual memory of learning that wasn't there. "Well, I suppose something about you led to me nominating you into our ranks."

[prettyballsy]

Eggsy's smile slid away, staring up at him still. "Well, maybe one day you'll tell me what it was," he said, because some days he wasn't sure. "Still failed you in the end."

[fucking_gentleman]

"Did you, or did you not help to save the world?"

He leaned over Eggsy, half crawling up him, predatory without even thinking about it.

[prettyballsy]

That was way fucking sexier than it should have been. Damn. For a long moment he stared up at him, just memorizing how he looked in that moment.

"Well, I did. Mostly because you weren't there and I looked a bit like you in the suit," he said, dismissing all he had done, all of the people he had killed to save the rest of the world.